I am in a "special place"

And what I mean by that, is that it's both negative and postive.

Things are just crazy right now. I've been on QVC, I am a fulltime Beachbody Coach that is picking up alot of steam (wahoo!), I just won a $1,000 for getting healthy, and the family dynamic is great. Some things that I struggle with (and I'm just being transparent), is God time. The number one thing in life, THAT I NEED, that my heart CRAVES...I slack. Yup, I said it. Thankfully, our GOD is one of grace and mercy, and HE knows I'm not perfect (phew!) and I can "jump back" in the game when I get my sh*t together. Sorry for the vulgurness, but ya know, that's who I am. I used to be alot worse, and with God's help I'm SO much better! With Grace, Family, Friends, Love, <--not in any particular order..I am saved and forgiven by HIM. What a relief! So, if you have any ideas on how to better myself in that area-I'm all ears! I need help just like anybody! I do get God time during workouts-what I'm doing now is putting the workouts on mute (sorry Shaun T and Tony H!) and listening to my Ipod. And it's usually worship playing. And ALOT of praying goes on, especially during globe twists, LOL.

So anywho-I love my readers, and I think ya'll are awesome. I need to post more often, and right now my husband is giving me the "stink eye" for me to get off the computer because it's nearing 5pm when we "try" to go offline...he he. So until next time..Let's all focus on HIM, balance in our lives, and LOVE.

In HIM and Health-Demi

Beachbody Fast-Day 2

Water is my friend, my ally, my saving grace. I know right now, my intestinal tract is regulating itself even more, my liver and kidneys are being given a much needed rest, and I know extra water weight is being expelled. Fasts, I think, are never easy..but for Christians..we also have an extra fighting power-PRAYER! They should add that to the instruction label on the fast, LOL. So today, I'm fasting for healing of my little girls kidneys, and for my family and marriage. This is much easier when God is involved.

Mondays..I think I'm just wierd

But I actually look forward to the "work" week. There is solitude in being with the kids, and keeping things nice, quiet and settled. I feel like I need that after a crazy, loud, Thanksgiving holiday. Our families..are just different..we get way too overexcited when we're together and then we drink too much which is why I think I'm going to fast that out of my body for a little while. Some things are better left out of your life for a time of cleansing and healing.

So you know that I try to be as transparant as possible, and that my posts aren't always so "jolly"-no pun intended. But if you pray, say a prayer for me and Jason. It's been a rough year for him, for us, and for our marriage. Particularly the latter. I know that things were different before I came into his life, they were better in certain ways. But then he met me..and let's just say, things changed! Some for the better, and some not. And then alot of the times the enemy uses that to put a good dose of guilt and depression to get me down. I'm definately in the down.

Good news is that I can only go up. My husband tells me that no matter what-he won't stop loving me. He won't let me push him away. He won't stop praying for me. It's pretty indescribable. Sounds alot like Jesus.

A popular prayer with me right now, is "Lord, make me a better wife, a better mother, change me in whatever way you see fit." Jason prayed the holy spirit into me this morning-and I felt it. He had asked me if I wanted some prayer. Me, in all my ignorance, said, no. He did it anyway. Thank the Lord he did.

I will hold on to this now. I need to hold on to this now. I need to claim it right now.

"Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance brings character; and character brings hope."

(Romans 5;3-4)

On a more serious note...

While I do consider this a very light hearted blog-things happen sometimes in people's lives so suddenly. And some, happen over a long period of time. Both need Jesus's healing touch. So if there is anyone in your life that needs this-please-pray for them. That quick "breath" prayer might have saved their life.

Some things that I am doing some healing prayers for are private at this time, but this one I want to be public. My friend Joanna (on side bar) just had a baby 4 weeks ago (I think, I may be off on that by a week or so), and is in the hospital. When babies are younger than 6 weeks, and develop a fever, it's an automatic ticket into the pediatrics center at MUSC. Thank God they are AMAZING, and in the top ten Peids in the country. I feel for her deeply, because as some of you remember, Isabel was in the same boat at 11 days old. Then Alana recently. While it is so emotionally draining, it is physically draining on the parents at the same time. I remember I had to stay by myself with Isabel since I was breastfeeding, and things were so erratic..sleep was very, very, difficult. They are breastfeeding as well and I can't even imagine how tired they are. Above being hospitalized, it's constant testing and medication, mostly all unpleasant for a baby, and just constant worry for everyone involved. So if you could, say a prayer for her, for their sweet baby Skye (seriously, look at the pics, she is ADORABLE!) and for any sleep the parents get, that God multiplies it by a million.

Another prayer request would be for a dear friend that lost someone dear to them very recently. I know this weekend was probably hard for her..I won't go into detail about everything, but I have come to realize that this is a different kind of healing..it certaintly takes time. But good for us is that we have a God who is there for her, every step of the way. I know He is deeply hurt at the same time and He is going to do miraculous things through this whole situation. Girl-I love you and you are in my daily prayers! Above all-we all need to really BELEIVE that prayer works. Sometimes I say them quickly, and in vain, like "Yeah right, that won't do anything." But it DOES. I have come to finally know that it DOES.

And finally, pray for me to be a good parent. I have anxiety/sleep issues, and every day is different. Soemtimes I have "old ghosts" that come to haunt and taunt me. And it seems to be happening alot lately. I definately need deliverence..that's all that needs to be said about that but Jesus knows the rest and he would deeply appreciate any help I can get!

Ok, this turned into some crazy long blog, and I've written multiple times today. Consider it a miracle! haha. Love you all.